| although i'm just going in for an outpatient surgery, part of me recognizes i could not wake up...
part of me also doesn't believe i can die. not like i'm some super hero that can't die if i fall off a cliff but the reality of things. i wanna say that it's worth it. what i've done, the decisions i've made and likewise the things i haven't done, said no to... i'm not ready to go. so cliche but true. if i want to be really honest i would say i'm ashamed, to stand before the all knowing, all powerful Father God. soo unworthy, soo underserving of grace. but my life has been exactly that. filled with love, grace, people, things and experiences that have been soo good. God is so good. Almost too good to be true. oh the atheist. God is the one thing that ISN'T too good to be true. On the other hand, those pins that are going into my wrist are suppose to be good, and the pain will be true 
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| Lord give me strength for i am so...
so unworthy, so unclean, so lacking...
I am so thankful of your unfailing grace.
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| so it has begun
the beginning of the end
i just feel soo....
i dunno.
incomplete.
which only means i need to pray a lil harder, listen more intently and diligently do God's will.
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| Brief Christmas Break timeline: Dec. 24- Christmas Eve! pick up Jo's friend from airport, pick up JoJo from airport Dec. 25- Merry Christmas! send parents + lil lil sis off at the airport to HK (i'm very jealous) Dec. 27- I turn 21. Dec 31- New Year's Eve Jan. 1- Happy New Year! Jan. 7- JoJo leaves PDX Jan. 8- parents + lil lil sis return Jan 11- i leave for MU, RA Spring Training starts! ...let's get together, yay yay yah. you know how to reach me. |
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| praise the LORD! this has never happened in all my time at Marquette...
SNOW DAY!
(my test is pushed back, all classes are canceled and yet there's still a basketball game tonight)
so what do i do... i should study but i'm going to embrace this "Free day," and just chill. ^_~ |
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